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| Our beautiful baby, Madelyn |
This grieving thing is not my cup of tea. I'm not a big fan of surprises and the fact that I don't know how I am going to feel from one day to the next is pretty hard. Today has been one of those "difficult" days. Madelyn would have been 4 weeks old today. Lilly was not sleeping well early this morning so I brought her out to the family room so I could hold her in a comfortable chair. I was completely "fine"<-- (that's a relative term) until the morning news came on and the news lady announced that it was 6 a.m. on March 1st. Madelyn came into the world exactly 4 weeks ago. Whenever I think of her birth, I think about how I was completely clueless at that point as to what was in store for me in the days to follow. I was prepared to take a child home that could possibly have some developmental delays, not to go home empty handed and immediately start planning a funeral and finding a burial plots.
