Benefits of Blogging

When I started this blog, I just wrote and posted my entries without sharing it with anyone.  The day that I made the video of Madelyn, I decided I wanted to share it with everyone.  I missed her and wanted everyone to see what a beautiful baby she was.  I also thought it was a good depiction of our time with her on earth.  I'm not the most outgoing person in the world, so this is also a way to share my thoughts and feelings without having to say it out loud.  My mom has called me out on this several times.  She would much rather I tell her what I'm feeling and not have to read it on my blog.  Maybe someday I can get to that point! :)


I pray everyday for anyone that reads this blog.  There is a cool feature on here that lets me know how many people have viewed the blog.  Somehow people have found this in multiple countries.  I love that Madelyn's video has been viewed over 500 times!  I'm sure over our half of those are by my mom and mother-in-law, but that's ok! :)  I hope you can let her short life here touch your life somehow.  Whether that is recognizing that life is short or how you need to let your loved ones know how much you love them.  Everyone can come away from this experience with something different.  I discover something knew almost everyday.

I appreciate the little things in life so much more.  Losing Madelyn and then reading the book One Thousand Gifts has helped me be "in the now" and see how everything is a gift from God.  Even if it seems like your world is crumbling around you, there is a purpose for it.  It may take weeks, months, and even years for you to realize it though.  I thank God that He is giving me the grace to see that losing my baby is for a purpose.  I don't feel like the victim in our story.  There are some days that I feel sorry for myself (I am not going to lie), but I still can find some good in this.  I have always been pretty blessed at finding something good in every situation, so maybe God has been helping me for this point in my life since I was little.

I also want to publicly thank God for my Christ Renews His Parish team 68 and especially the ladies at my table.  I know God placed us all together for a reason which I realized during the weekend and even more so last night at our meeting!  Wow - You really work in mysterious ways!

Faith is the realization of what is hoped for and evidence of things not seen. - Hebrews 11:1